What if...
What if.. has always been going in my mind. What if he has feelings for me? What if he's actually dislike me? What if he has a girl of he's choice? What if I didn't fall in love with him? What if... It's a powerful word " What if... ". He's a great guy and I really like him but we're friends and I think he friend zoned me. Yeah a girl being friend zoned by the boy she likes is like pure horror. I mean I like him as in I love him? If my love is being rejected, I glad my heart is crush by him that some heartless playboy bastard. He really is something unique. In every test I take, I can hear his voice giving me facts and tips and encouragement. It's one of the reason I like or love about him.
I really miss our intimate time together. There was one time I try not talking to him but eventually I gave in because he's just too adorable to resist.He whatsapp me even though I was just next to him. And what I regret the most is that I actually make the boy I like cry because of me. I feel like stabbing myself with a knife. I mean how could I! It was such a disgrace and I hate myself for that. Later on, there were some tense atmosphere between us but we patch back real quickly with a song. A song is all that takes for us to be back together.
Oh I never tell you his name right? Well let's call him owl. I'm not gonna tell you guys his name, that would be stupid of me (I know he's cute but he's mine and the girls out there are perverted). If the guy you like is your friend that means you can make a folder of picture about that hunk of a guy. Wait! I sound like a creepy stalker -_- ohh that I am hahaha (just for him) It was his birthday 22nd December and guess what's his present is? Yeah, it that purple green dye shirt up top. It suits him very much and I'm glad. The picture about is when we were shopping at Giant. Just the two of us. Yeah kind of romantic and stuff like one of those relationship goals. I really can't get enough of him at all. Each time I snap a picture, I can help but falling even deeper in love with him. I'm not even his girlfriend but I love him. Oh how ironic. Welcome to the 21st century.
So what if I been friend zoned by the guy I like. I got another 5 semester to get his heart and if that didn't work then I'll just have let Allah do His work for He is the Almighty and everything has been written down even my partner that will lead me to Jannah. But I do hope that it will be him. I don't wanna get my hope up high but I'm a single girl for 4 years now and I only couple like 2 times only and that was monkey love . A waste of time and money but hey that's youth for you.It will be bad if I confess my love for him now. I mean I don't wanna break our bond as friend and make it all awkward. I will never let that happen. I rather suffer not telling than tell him and all that awkward and later not seeing each other anymore. That is even pure horror suffer and disastrous for me and my heart. NO! I will not let that happen. I love him too much it hurts.
